Healing

have you ever set and listen to the same song over and over and started to think that the singer was singing to you. wow try sleeping with a broken heart is sure tired of my cd player by now but the stroy is the sad stroy of my life.years past but the memories last. im was so use to cryin myself to sleep till it became my thing............ crazy huh.not in a million years did I think there was gonna be a you without me.you had some a strong hold on my heart til it use to make me sick when you was away I use to bragg about how my baby put it down.time and time again I wanted to just pick p my phone and call. only man that ever made my body feel right thats what I use to say member that.I wanted to hold on to end I didn't want to be alon but every knew you was wrong and I could play the stupid girl no more.you use to say you would alway love me and you'll never leave me.I still remember your touch,smell,smile and eyes. you use to need me then I needed you. I try to make it work so many time before but it was like the more i try to get us back to us you just pull away more. after all the hurt I put my last through I shouldn't even be feeling this away bout you. I let you hurt me time and time again but I still loved you. I STILL LOVED YOU. the bull I did with you I wouldn't do it with any other man. my whole world was center around you and you just walked all over it. ou ask my for my heart knowing I was in a bad place in my life then, promise to keep it and take care of it. you use to have my back WHAT HAPPEN? use to blame myself for us falling apart but I never did anything but love you. I was everything you wanted me to be and it still wasn't enough for you. I tried loving someone else after you but its hard everything time it would get good I pull away and find a reason not to be happy. we didn't last and I cant blame him.others tried to break the ice from around my heart but it needed to sit in the sun a bit more. I needed time to forgive you and I did.I needed to find a way to make it without you and my doing just that. a small part of my will always love you but I dont ever wanna be in love with you. you use to say being with you is were my healing process begins but you was wrong. living without you is were my healing begins.